Don't you know? Can't you see?
Why won't you look at me?
In the shadows of my mind
doubts about myself you'll find
When you laugh at what I do
I wonder what I ever did to you
darkness is where I reside
It's where I run and hide
Now that time has come and past
I can't understand why I let it last
You're not completely all to blame
I will bear some of the shame
I let you reign in my mind
when what I should have done was leave you behind
My battle is easier now
The miracle is how
The shadows are now filled with light
I am no longer alone in my fight
Little Sisterhush little sister, i am here now
i know that mom and dad are mad
but just stay with me in this room
and hold onto me until the storm is had
oh dear little sister, i won't leave
I am needed here, as you well know
the other little ones can't be left behind
but get away while you can, just you go
now dear little sister, you're a fool
this boy you think you love is not good
he is not good for you, you will hurt
he'll leave pain, where joy once stood
oh, my lovely little sister dearest
you are so beautiful and sweet
why do you doubt your loveliness
so much that you fall for every fool you meet?
hush little sister, i am here now
i know that you are in so much pain
but just let me hold you close now
and let the storm come, let come the rain.
MemoriesI'll always remember our friendship
the way it used to be
Everything we told each other
was just between you and me
growing up is hard to do
even with best friends
no matter how bad things got
you were always there when it ends
the years fly by as they often do
I always thought I'd be best friends with you
But as I've said, time causes things to fade
but in my heart is where my memories have always stayed
I love you dearly, but this rift I can't mend
I'll always have memories of you, my sister, my friend
games of make-believe
sunshine and bare feet
rainstorms; a slight reprieve
the grass all wet
the flowers covered in rain
flee the indoors
and continue my game
running th fields alone
sun sets low
its dark when i return home
years gone by
childhood left behind
with the scent of wild lilacs
a way to the past i find
The Rain Falls
raindrops fall on my life
tear drops fall from my eyes
I can't stop crying
my heart bleeds and breaks
my soul shivers and shakes
I'm falling apart
suddenly plunged into deep waters
dark cold consumes me
reaching up in the black
reaching for your hand
I find nothing
Surface all alone
still reaching for your hand
I don't see you
your name I say
as rain falls
I am alone
Are you near me?
can you hear me?
I don't know
For The Usedtake what is not your's
she won't tell anyone
she will live with the shame
and the pain of your deeds
you take what is hers
what doesn't belong to you
and she sends silent pleas
for help, but none comes
because she is one of many
many who are destroyed
by those like you
her pain will never be avenged
and her wrong never righted
this is sad but true
there is no justice
for the used
you get away with your sin
and she will live with the sorrow
and the shame of a silent victim
Earthyou are the heaven to my hell
you are the angel, i am a demon
i'm a sinner, you're a saint
i am darkness; you are light
we do not belong in each others worlds
so we find a middle ground
Raping Her Love
she is only a girl, a child at heart
but within a moment, you have torn her apart
stealing her joy, killing her purity
all to prove to yourself of your maturity
how could you do this? Rape something so innocent?
She loved you, loves you still, until her love is spent
She loved the feel of your hands
answered your pleas and demands
but when she tried to deny you
you revealed the self of you that was true
Taking her love for your touch
But still she loves you so much
And still, after all the misuse
she allows you to continue your abuse
to touch her and shame her completely
then when your done you say, ever so sweetly
that you love her and will always need her
Then you wonder why she is suicidal
Dear Diary....Dear Diary, you will never believe it
I met a boy today. he was sweet.
I made a complete fool of myself.
I know he can't like me now.
He said hi to me in class, diary!
I can't believe it but its true.
Then after class he asked me
if he could copy my notes.
I let him. I like him so much.
He asked me out! I said yes
we're going to the movies
I wonder if he really wants
to be with me or not.
I hope so.
Diary its been monthes
and we're still together.
He makes me so happy.
I love him, diary so much.
We'll always be together.
I know it.
I gave him my virginity last night.
It hurt but he promised it wouldn't
anymore. I trust him.
But he hasn't called me yet.
I think I'll call him. I miss him.
I'm pregnant, diary. My dad
wants to kill him. He won't
answer any of my calls.
Why is he doing this?
I thought he loved me.
I hate my life.
I fell asleep on my floor last night.
I didn't have the energy to crawl
three feet to my bed. I don't eat