SoC:MichaelFreezing in my blood and torturing the skinYou are here, you are thereTrying to poison my thoughts with youDon’t you know you’re already there?That you are always there, hiding thereSneaking into my daily thoughtsOr just sitting there in the back of my mindIt does not matter how or whereIt simply is what it is and I cannot breathYou torture my soul, my very heartI feel the pain and the agonyAnd I should be screaming for it to endBut the mere thought of ending itOf finishing this agony and tortureMakes me scream louder with distainI will never let you out of my bloodLet you leave my thoughtsI let you
SoC:VictoriaFriend no more, we barely speakI don’t understand these feelingsI want nothing more to do with youYet when I see you in your beautyYour hair straight and loose and darkI sometimes wish I was still your friendYou hurt me my whole lifeDestroyed my self esteemKilled most of my precious dreams of lifeYou tainted my relationship with hateYou poisoned it with jealousyYour anger at my choices left a bitter tasteAnd it still stings my tongue to this dayHe’s mine and I his yet you judge me stillWhat I do with my body and hisWell that is between me, him, and GodYou may have been my friend but that,That does n
SoC:JoanYears I have felt nothing for you but hateCold and icy in my chest at the mention of your nameAnd now all I feel is pity and sorrow for your lifeYou had so much chance and lifeA love and a family that would have made you happyBut you couldn’t let go of the fleshJust as you cannot now, poor womanNow I am sorry I couldn’t see it soonerI shouldn’t hate you, I should pray for youThen again, perhaps I should thank youI was able to love my sisters and my brotherIn a way I would not have been able to otherwiseYou abandoned us all to your own troublesAnd I got to show them how to loveAnd yet you still manage
FreedomFreedomI’m shaken and can’t breathe.A sob slips out from my dry lips,so long have I been screaming.A hand reaches down to help me stand.Not enough strength in meso more hands help me sit.With a soft sigh I allowthem to cover my lap and fold my hands.I can barely breathe withthe amazing awesomosity.As I sit in the pew and tryto remember to breathe,I am awestruck at what I have gained.I only wanted to see him.My friend and love and joy,he would be the reason of my gift.I loved the music, sung along.The games and laughter were infectious.To see them all dance and singand all for the King.So her
The Other Side of the BladeShe pulls me against her silk-smooth skin. I am not the first to touch her here but I will show her I am the best. I whisper gently against the white expanse of her wrist, crooning to the life-force flowing beneath. It responds and flows forth from its encasement, trying to seal her wound. I laugh as she pulls me across her other wrist, then begins to caress me across her forearms. He life-force tries, but cannot stop itself from flowing in a crimson banner down to stain her carpet. She’s crying now, adding to my pleasure. I love when her tears fall and wet her skin. The salt liquid makes it easier to rip open her purity. Belo
Face the DawnIn the cold night, a wolf howls. Another responds to her mate’s call. The sky is cloudless and the full moon is low in the western sky. Dawn will come within the next hour. It is the perfect timing. This is the night when it will end. If The Prince knew I was hunting the beast, he would have me locked away. Better he didn’t know. Not until it is too late to stop me. I must end this tonight.The forest embraces me in its secret shadowed places and the scent of the flowers masks my own scent from my prey. I can already feel him, his stench of blood and evil overwhelming the trees and flowers. I know I shouldn’t be her
The Dragon Ladythe lady wasn't always who she isshe was once a poor girlher family was killed before her eyeswhen she ran she found protectionin the world of warto escape a life of royal serviceshe ran and turned roguebefriending many local herosincluding a trader and a thiefshe grew into a hero herselfwhen a priestess asks for assistanceto retrieve a stole boxthe lady offered her skills and her daggersto the priestess' handsmany dangers and trapswere laid before herand many tried to keep her from her goalbut in the end a dragon hachlinglay sleeping in her armsthe lady, still a teen girl, was terrified,this life depen
SoC:SuicideI’m used and abusedThis is beyond not fairThis is ludicrous and insaneI’m angry and violentI could hurt myselfI could hurt youBleed, blood, bled it allDie, death, dead insideFreaking out of timeI’m tired of this abuseMisuse, anger, painNothing makes it stopNothing, I want to bleedLet me cut my arm till I bleedLet me just die and be doneI’m here to be abusedI'm here to be usedNo one knows this painNo one understands this tortureI am so angry and violentAnd I’m a hazard to the worldAnd I’m a hazard to myselfI am dangerousI am deadlyLet me show you what I meanCut my
You are like...Your love is a razorblade on my heartCutting me until I’m bleeding dryYour kiss is like a poison so addictingI drink it until I dieYour embrace is like a forbidden treasureAlways adding danger to the lustYour touch is like fire on my skinAnd I let it burn inside me, I mustWhat else can I do?What else can I allow?You think I should let this go?I would instantly, just tell me how!Your voice suits you wellDeep and seductively sweetI feel shy and nervousIt’s like that every time we meetYou are like this addictionOne from which none can free meWould that I could make you feel thisThen maybe you would
I don'tI’m angryThat is the only way I can say itI am angry and hurt and in loveMadly and utterlyBut do you care? NoBut I don’t want you to careI don’t want you to come near meI don’t want you to kiss meI don’t want you to wrap your armsAround my smaller frameAnd hold me close, keep me safeI don’t want you to love meI don’t want you to feel meI don’t want you to need meBecause then where will we be?I don’t want you to want meI don’t want to love youI don’t want to feel for youWell I was never very goodAt lying
I amI’m not in loveIt’s just my mindIt’s just my body’s needsI can’t love himJust because he’s in my mindThat doesn’t mean anythingJust because my heart hurtsJust because I don’t knowWhere it wentIt doesn’t mean I’m in loveMaybe he has itNo! That can’t beI won’t let it beIf he has my heart…No I won’t say itMy heart is goneI never had oneNo, I did, I rememberIt still hurts where he cut it outOr was that someone elseNo matter, it’s gone nowIt’s not mine anymoreWait, does that mean…no!I’m not going thereI’ve
After the RainThe sky darkens from blue to black greyThe thunder begins its callingThe lightening flashes and flickersThen begins the downpourI don’t rightly care for proprietyNor do I care for sensibilityI run into the rain’s cryLaughing in the downpour of waterI’m suddenly soaked to skinInstantaneously soaked through my clothesAnd then I stop and close my eyesI can feel every drop of rain on meLike a pinprick of wet pleasurePleasure, I shudder at the wordI hurt because of that wordThe rain hits my upturned faceCaressing my lips like a kissA cold kiss, a wet kissSo different from youA kiss you gave me
Love Written on her ArmHer love for youA love so magically pureA love so dangerously innocentA love so hidden and demurYour love for herA love so darkly delightfulA love so safely sinfulA love so open and slightly spitefulYou tease her with a kissShe shudders underneath your lipsShe can’t see this going farYet you make her heart do flipsShe responds so swiftly and openYour hand on her waist, belonging nearHer shuddered sigh against your chestShe is yours to draw close, that is her fearYou confuse her mind, her soulShe doesn’t understand this loveShe cries tears of broken heartHer sobs as soft as a doveShe has avoide
ShatteredLike a mirror of glass and woodMy heart has shattered in my handsCutting and splintering my palmsBut unlike the mirror on my wallThe mirror that stole my soulThe mirror I shattered against the wallWith a picture in a frameIt was not my hands that destroyed my heartIt was your strong grip, so strongLike when you held my hand so tenderlyWhen you kissed me so softlyWhen you grabbed my waist and kissed meYou took my heart so gentlyYou didn’t know what it wasHow could you? I hid it awayI tried to pretend I didn’t want to give it to youBut it was already yoursJust like my body and my soulSo now my heart
Math ClassMath class bores meI can’t comprehendMy shoes are already dirty againI’m in the back of classWriting poetry instead of mathEmpty desks and chairsSurround my tiny cornerMy gum’s lost its flavorLunch is arriving soonIts like this most daysAll I want is to writeI don’t understand mathSo I sit back hereAnd ignore the teacherNot that she noticesNo one ever doesIf I’m quiet and smallAnd away from the crowdI am invisibleUntil my boyfriend shows upThen I’m his, I’m there, his candyI’m not the first, not the lastTo hide, to be ignored, forgottenThis is my world, a da
FreezeIce, bitter and bitingIt crawls across my skinMy legs, my handsMy joints are stiffMy blood nearly freezesThen I shiver againAnd the cold streaks acrossMy skin againHe is molten heatBurning me easilyHis hands span my waistHis legs incase mineWe sit there silentHis heat melting my coldThen he pulls awayEasily sleeping on the floorAnd just like thatI freeze
Pass ByStanding in the shadowsIsolated and silentThe world passes byAvoiding the figureWhose eyes see allAnd miss nothingThey pass on byShrouded in shadowsCloaked in darkShe sees all that pass byShe does not interveneDoes not try to helpShe just watchesThe world pass by
Suicidally TwistedHopeless, helpless, totally uselessThe pressure’s buildingMy heart is poundingMy eyes are wateringA feeling of sorrowA feeling of despairDeath closes inLife slips awayMy eyes closeThe tears fallThe pills are swallowedThen suddenly, it’s goneThe sorrow, the despair, the hopelessnessAnd I’m terrifiedI run screaming to my dadI’m sorry, I took some pillsHelp me, I’m dieingA rush to a hospitalSurgery and time awayTherapy and prayerBut when it’s overWill he be waiting for me?Depression can killIn all forms and ways
Close Your EyesI’m the girl you never see cry because I hide it with a smileI’m the girl you never see hurt because I’m always so happyI’m the girl who when the lights go out cuts till she bleedsand I’m the girl that if you don't hurry will die from the painI’m not that girl anymore but there are girls like that all aroundif you look hard enough you'll see they look just like mea smile for the world to hide the pain and sorrow and hurtso when you see that girl and wonder how she can smile all the timejust remember she might not be as happy as she wants you to think she isI'm not whole, I'm brokenI'm not perf
SeventeenMy heart feels like its breakingAnd bleeding all over thisGod forsaken beige carpetThat I hate so very very muchDon’t ask me to explainIt’s beyond words Even for meThis pain and agonyThis desire and passionAll of this need and wantThis thing called my heart and soulCannot be explained in wordsNo matter how I attempt toBut I know that when I wake upThis sorrow will be goneReplaced by the need to sleepThe want to stay in bedAnd then it will be replacedWith want for caffeine and sugarThen I will continue my dayThis way is common for meWhat could I say…I’m seventeenThis is normal a
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