Years I have felt nothing for you but hate
Cold and icy in my chest at the mention of your name
And now all I feel is pity and sorrow for your life
You had so much chance and life
A love and a family that would have made you happy
But you couldnt let go of the flesh
Just as you cannot now, poor woman
Now I am sorry I couldnt see it sooner
I shouldnt hate you, I should pray for you
Then again, perhaps I should thank you
I was able to love my sisters and my brother
In a way I would not have been able to otherwise
You abandoned us all to your own troubles
And I got to show them how to love
And yet you still manage
Friend no more, we barely speak
I dont understand these feelings
I want nothing more to do with you
Yet when I see you in your beauty
Your hair straight and loose and dark
I sometimes wish I was still your friend
You hurt me my whole life
Destroyed my self esteem
Killed most of my precious dreams of life
You tainted my relationship with hate
You poisoned it with jealousy
Your anger at my choices left a bitter taste
And it still stings my tongue to this day
Hes mine and I his yet you judge me still
What I do with my body and his
Well that is between me, him, and God
You may have been my friend but that,
That does n
Freezing in my blood and torturing the skin
You are here, you are there
Trying to poison my thoughts with you
Dont you know youre already there?
That you are always there, hiding there
Sneaking into my daily thoughts
Or just sitting there in the back of my mind
It does not matter how or where
It simply is what it is and I cannot breath
You torture my soul, my very heart
I feel the pain and the agony
And I should be screaming for it to end
But the mere thought of ending it
Of finishing this agony and torture
Makes me scream louder with distain
I will never let you out of my blood
Let you leave my thoughts
I let you
Your love is a razorblade on my heart
Cutting me until Im bleeding dry
Your kiss is like a poison so addicting
I drink it until I die
Your embrace is like a forbidden treasure
Always adding danger to the lust
Your touch is like fire on my skin
And I let it burn inside me, I must
What else can I do?
What else can I allow?
You think I should let this go?
I would instantly, just tell me how!
Your voice suits you well
Deep and seductively sweet
I feel shy and nervous
Its like that every time we meet
You are like this addiction
One from which none can free me
Would that I could make you feel this
Then maybe you would